Myself

The Frank Miller Post

I found this old diary of mine a while ago, when sifting through piles of half-forgotten books and newspaper cuttings and notebooks. It was from 1997. In the diary, I had listed names that inspired me, cheesy as it may sound. Number 1 on the list was this composer from South India. Number 3 was a comic writer and artist named Frank Miller.

I met Frank Miller yesterday. “Met” would be too strong a term, I guess. We did not exchange words with each other; I am not even sure we made eye contact. I guess it would be fairer to say that I was in the immediate vicinity of Frank Miller, with an interaction that bordered on the semi-transactional. Which is to say that I passed him two of my books, and he scrawled his signature on both of them. Desperate to instill some significance into this special moment, I tried to say something to Frank – but I was distracted by the assembly line feel of the signing. (The same thing happened with Stan Lee at the Hammer too, last year. Which reminds me that Stan the Man also turned up at the signing, to cheers and applause. “Who would win in a fight, Superman or Captain America?”, he asked Miller. He then proceeded to announce to the crowd that Miller would make an appearance at Comikaze 2016, which is Los Angeles’s own comic convention) The act of signing was a quick, mechanical flourish of the pen, with Frank’s hands already moving to my pal Sasi’s books right behind me – er, which were also technically my books. [ref]Sasi was there because I had called him a few hours earlier. He must have heard the note of panic in my voice as I tried to calmly tell him that Frank Miller was signing at the Grove, and that there was a two-book limit, and would he please come along so that I could get an additional book signed too, and he agreed. [/ref] But I get it, it was a long line, and really, Frank Goddamned Miller does not owe me anything. Yet…

Like most of the things that interested me early on in life, Frank Miller was a name that popped up in letter columns of comics. In ads for assorted comics, like The Dark Knight Returns, and Batman Year One, comics published in the early-to-mid 80s that made their way to small cities in North-Eastern India by some strange rules of supply and demand and happenstance.

Miller. Frank Miller. Klaus Janson and Frank Miller. Frank Miller and Lynn Varley. Frank Miller and Bill Sienkiewiecz. Frank Miller and David Mazzuchelli. The names of his collaborators got more and more grueling for my tongue, and the urge to read a Miller comic got even worse.

A page in What If 34. “What if Daredevil was Deaf Instead of Blind?” Played for laughs, but a fight scene that stayed in my mind. A short story in What If 35, “What If Elektra Had Lived?”, where I figured out the story of what had happened to Elektra (um, yeah, Bullseye kills her, Matt is heartbroken, life goes on) from an alternate reality story. I loved the brief snippets of art I saw, especially the dynamic, minimalist images of Daredevil running towards you. The mood and the way light and dark intersected in the panels. It felt very different from the comics I was used to.

Much later, I would meet Silver Age fans and see their reverence for Jack Kirby and Neal Adams. I never got Kirby art; Adams was fun, but a little dated. But I remembered my reaction to Frank Miller, and understood how that generation of fans must have reacted to Kirby.

A friend in school gave me my first Daredevil comic by Miller. It was one of the later issues, ‘Child’s Play’, where DD goes against the Punisher (also my first introduction to the latter). Everything about that issue is etched in my mind. The cover, where DD is shown flying back from a shotgun blast, his face frozen in surprise. The Punisher kneels on the other side of the page, with shotgun in his hand, a mean look on his mug. “Again…the Punisher”, screams the cover. The story begins with a scene that unfolds in a classroom, featuring a goose-bump inducing narration of drug abuse. The sequence of events that follow spiral out from school to a hospital to a courtroom and beyond, where Matt Murdock is to defend a criminal who has been wrongly accused of peddling drugs to kids. Wrongly accused because he can hear the Hogman’s heartbeat when he protests that he is innocent. The visual tics were incredible. We see the Punisher’s arms first, doing pushups in – I dunno – a loft? There’s a TV in the room, talking about Matt’s defense. The man stops exercising, and pays attention to the news report. You know something’s going to happen. The themes that I encountered in these stray Miller stories are familiar chords that the creator plays with, and improvises on, again and again. [ref]The role of television as a parallel narrative, in particular, is something that the creator employed to great effect in his later work. [/ref]There were fight sequences on rooftops that did not feel like a superhero fracas at all. The comics I had been used to were Eastmancolor narratives, all sun and summer and optimism. Miller’s Daredevil felt different, the equivalent of seeing a hand-held camera sequence for the first time. I would learn the word “gritty” much later, and I remember how apt it felt, to sum up what I was taking in back then.

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Cover to Daredevil #183 by Frank Miller

Would I have said anything to Miller? Would I have liked to talk to him in detail? Of course I would. But I was worried too. It is worrisome when someone you look up to does things that are at odds with your worldview, and the zeitgeist of the times. Frank Miller’s career choices and outlook seem irreversibly tinged with the events of September 11, 2001. Before 9/11, Miller was angry, but his anger seemed to be cast in a noble, somewhat naive view of who the Good Guys were; people weren’t just bad, they were Downright Despicable. The book of interviews Eisner/Miller brings this aspect of Frank Miller into sharp focus. Here he is, this guy of the 70s and 80s, talking to an old-timer in the comics industry who was right there in the Golden Age of Comics. Miller is raging against unfair practices of the sweatshops and how Siegel and Shuster were treated badly and how Bob Kane is the worst person in the history of comics. Eisner on the other hand tries to say that it’s not all black-and-white, that things were not that clear-cut, and that makes Miller blink once or twice (metaphorically, of course), but he sticks to his narrative. It’s all somewhat bizarre, but it also made me take pause and re-evaluate Miller – in particular his rage-filled commentary in the letters pages of Sin City, a series I had painstakingly collected issue by issue right after graduating from college.

But post-9/11 Miller, boy-oh-boy. Go no further than Holy Terror, to understand how Miller’s ideas about Us vs Them, Good vs Evil solidified into something that is so blindly ideological and full of blatant racism. All Star Batman starts off as a fuck-you to rabid fans, featuring train-wreck scenes that give people what they want, amped up to 11 thousand, but there is only so much of mischief-mongering one can take. But what really made you take pause was Miller’s Anti-Occupy-Wall-Street rant on his (now-under-construction) website.  This is the text, juxtaposed over an iconic scene from Batman: Year One.

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Text by Frank Miller, originally drawn by David Mazzuchelli for “Batman: Year One” (1986) Source: http://io9.gizmodo.com/5859038/frank-miller-slams-occupy-wall-street-becomes-a-parody-of-himself

 

Oh-kay, Frank.

Add to these missives from cuckoo-land the fact that Miller’s drawing skills were deteriorating as the years went by. The first few pages of Holy Terror were the ones advertised by the media – they were gorgeous swathes of black and white that captured the man’s anger and grief, or so I think. But by the time the book came out 10 years later, nearly everything had changed.  The rest of the book is near-stream-of-consciousness story – and I use that word with more than a hint of irony – propped by artwork that is at best Miller-Lite, and at worst, pen-and-ink excretions. Gone was the growling  voice and the words that made you quiver. What remained was an angry old man and his bitterness. This is how heroes dissolve in your eyes.

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DC Comics however still finds in Miller a well of potential, but that is more to do with DC’s market base, sheep people who buy into the nostalgia of a few decades ago and want more of what they read when they were sixteen, back in 1985. DC’s biggest hit from last year was a comic called Sandman: Overture, which featured a prequel to a best-seller from the 80s. Their attempt to capitalize on a travesty called Before Watchmen did not work out well[ref]With the petulance of a child that can legitimately say “I told you so”, I gaze at bargain bin sections of bookstores, filled to the brim with unsold hardcovers of BW, and I whisper “Yes”.[/ref], but that does not stop them from trying out a similar exercise with the third in that trinity – The Dark Knight Returns. The only smart thing that they managed to do was to put a different writer-artist team in charge of the actual book. Miller is around as a creative consultant and plotter, but is understandably hands-off the project, making his appearances and walking up to the podium to talk about how happy he is with continuing a story that he had intended to be “the final Batman adventure”. What he has done for this series is a mini-comic, whose cover does not flatter Superman. But there are always defenders, obviously. Because art, right? [ref]For the record, I do not think Miller intends to draw clunky, minimalist lines as a stylistic choice. I think he *cannot* draw anything but clunky lines.[/ref]

Happily, most of the authors I grew up on are great human beings. Their humility and graciousness make me feel good about liking their art, and while the Internet Age has made some of their mystique go away, I am always in favor of walking up to a creator, look them in the eye and thank them for the joy and wonder they brought into my life and many others. From what I have seen, this simple act is a Good Thing. I wish I could have done the same thing with Frank Miller. It feels like Miller 2016 is impeded by his inability to live in the real world I inhabit, where nuance is preferred to knee-jerk reactions; and where people of influence are mindful of how their words play out in a troll-infested garden. Or maybe my tastes have changed, and it is simply not possible for me to separate an artist’s work from the artist as an individual any more. Mostly because there is a lot of art around me, and I can afford to pick my spot. The signing was important as an item on my bucket list, getting the books signed themselves was not. [ref]I mean, I own a signed/limited copy of the Graphitti Edition of Ronin, a gargantuan volume that nearly broke my back as I hauled it home from San Jose last year. [/ref] It is just that Miller and his current work feel irrelevant in my life right now.

A sort of epilogue, I suppose. I spent part of Sunday rereading The Dark Knight Returns. It was as emotional an experience as it was those many years ago. I do find myself taking away different things from it, and probably would like to talk about the work some time. I am still a fan, 1986-Frank-Miller; I hope you are okay with the fact that I cannot deal with your work any more. [ref]Hubris. He does not (and should not) care.[/ref] [Previously on Frank Miller, during the release of Holy Terror.]

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Myself

The innards of my bag

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This is what my inside of my office briefcase looks like today.

The bag contains:

  1. My Dell office laptop, sans charger. I have multiple chargers in the office and at home, so I don’t have to carry them around.
  2. My iPad.
  3. Bluetooth keyboard for the iPad.
  4. My Kindle.
  5. A Macbook Air, along with charger, because my boss insisted that I carry one for this presentation that I am working on, to ensure MS Office compatibility. (The laptop runs Ubuntu, and OpenOffice)
  6. A DVD of Under The Skin, the Scarlett Johanssen movie which pal William borrowed from the LA Public Library for me, after having recommended it for weeks.
  7. Two volumes of Saturn Apartments, a manga that I am reading at the moment, set in a future where Earth is a natural preserve and humanity lives on an artificial ring-world around the planet. The book follows the lives on window-washers who live on the lowest level of said ring-world apartments.

I am headed to lunch and I am wondering what I should read. Yes, really.

The Saddleback Thin Briefcase, by the way, is a heavy piece of work – 3 kgs/6 pounds by itself. Sure, the leather is luscious, and it’s starting to get a wonderful patina with age. It also comes with Saddleback Leather’s 100-year guarantee and all, but I could probably give someone a concussion by swinging it around when it’s empty. It gets a fair share of comments when I walk around, but it can get plenty painful on the shoulders especially when I have been walking around all day. On the positive side, that forces me to avoid carrying my laptop on trips, which works out really well in airport security.

So, what do you have in your bag?

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Albums, Music

Deaf Center – Time Spent

What is it about the notes of a solitary piano that appeal to me so much, I wonder? This 2 minute 10 second piece passed my cardinal test for new music – which is that it made me pause in my work and give it my undivided attention. I expected the piano pattern to lead into some sort of aural explosion at the end, because this is how music of this sort conditions you; and it’s great at building tension, this track. The bass notes buzzes into existence around the 1:19 mark, but that is about all the variance you get.

The album, though, is more adventurous. A blend of cello-scrapes and breathy flute notes make up the bulk of the initial track ‘Divided’; it feels like a conductor raising his hands and waking an orchestra from a dream of centuries, a single note that is sustained over 4 minutes and 23 seconds. ‘Close Forever Watching’ is a sister track to ‘Divided’, going through a similar cycle of build-up of drone sounds that scream and whisper and sigh one after the other. Similarly, ‘Fiction Dawn’ is a sister track to ‘Time Spent’, a lone piano wandering through tense passages of full of promise. ‘The Day I would Never Have’ is a 10 minute track that marks the mid-point of the album, and combines the tinkle of the piano and the hum of the pads. Beautiful.

The problem with this kind of moody, creep-down-your-ears-into-your-spine music is how limited a window of opportunity I have to enjoy it. The bulk of my music-listening happens in the car, and what really goes well with driving is up-tempo beats and melodies. I have tried listening to Nils Frahm in the car, and I find myself slowing down on the freeway, or holding my breath in anticipation; the low-register subtleties of the music do not lend themselves to listening while on the move. At home, music gets put on in the background when I am cooking, or reading; the former brings in the same objections, and the latter makes it hard for me to focus on the reading.

This is also not the kind of music you want to listen to with others, not unless everyone’s willing to cut down on conversation and give a song like this their full-fledged attention. That is something that rarely happens in a group, and also, it is hard to get a bunch of people together that like the same things about a piece of music, or even that same piece, for that matter.

Similar to this genre are the weird, out-there sensibilities of Toru Takematsu or John Zorn, for example. Zorn’s music, in particular, would drive apartment-mates, my girlfriend and other assorted animals in the vicinity out of their minds. It’s hard to take this kind of music in for more than 2 or 3 tracks at a time, for sure.

Deaf Center would make for great meditation music, or walking-in-nature music. I don’t do much of the former, but I should definitely get around to indulging more in the latter. If only to listen to more space-hippie music.

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Mixtapes, Music

The First 2016 Playlist

I might as well stop arranging playlists by month. I started calling this the January 2016 playlist, but it’s already middle of February – and you will admit that’s kind of dumb.

Chairlift’s Moth is the first album I have fallen in love with this year. ‘Ch-Ching’ is the hallmark of the lot, featuring not one, not two, but three different hooks that latch on to your brain. Add to it the vogue-happy dance video featuring the lovely Caroline Polachek in that orange dress; the sexy brass riffs that sneak in and out of the vocals; the random “ow”s and “whoo”s punctuating the track. Patrick Wimberly’s drum programming – specifically the use of the rimshot and finger-clicks, and that wonderful ratatat drum phrase – also a winner. 27-99-23, y’all.

I saw Father John Misty live at Treasure Island Music Fest last year, and this zany song —accompanied by a video that is filled with Kanye-West-level of self-love — is one of my favorite tracks from his new album I Love You Honeybear. 

Gunship makes tripped-out electropop. This video has He-Man, Hellraiser, and a host of other B-show video tributes in claymation.

Is ‘Kamikaze’ the solo song that makes MØ explode on the mainstream scene? The lady made her name with her 2014 album (‘Pilgrim’ featured on one of my earlier playlists) and collaborations with Ariana Grande and Major Lazer, but the upcoming studio album with Diplo producing sounds like it’s on another level altogether. The tune’s so infectious, and the main instrumental riff (which sounds like a shakuhachi blended with a celtic violin) gets into your head faster than the fumes from a 43-year old bottle of Glendronach. ‘Take me to the party/kami kami kaze’ doesn’t make much sense, but sometimes a song doesn’t have to. Yet another vogue video, and it’s not a coincidence.

If you think Lana Del Rey is vapid and commercial music, you haven’t been paying attention – I don’t care if she is. She has her West Coast gangsta style melded with classic pop/rock  routine down pat (listen to the guitar riff and the tonal shift at 1:18. Isn’t that a Beatles chord from ‘And I Love Her’?), and it works so well. I have heard three different versions of this song, and they all bring different things to the table. The original is classic Lana, and the (mostly) black-and-white video gets bonus points for being shot in Marina del Rey, my hood till a few months ago.

One of the many songs that sample Quantic Soul Orchestra’s track ‘Pushin On’, ‘Triburbia’ is a delectable goblet of funk served chilled. Caution: It will stir and shake you.

Speaking of delectable, Pal William introduced me to the joys of New Jersey-born Melody Gardot. Add to that velvety-chocolate voice some old-school orchestral strings floating in the background, with a jazz brush-drum beat that patters like raindrops on windows, and you have ‘Baby I’m A Fool’. Yum.

If there was a playlist of music videos to get high to, Rone’s ‘Bye Bye Macadam’ would fall squarely under the psychedelia section. Observe how deceptively simple the song is, a miasma of sawtooth waves over a drum and bass track. I am starting to get into Rone’s discography now, and have high hopes.

NEW FALLULAH ALBUM END OF FEBRUARY, BITCHES! She has released 4 singles from the new album so far, and they are oh-so-wonderful.The tremolo in her voice makes my knees go weak every single time, and her use of the female chorus is flawless. Lovely to see an artiste grow so much over the years and still maintain a unique identity. Go check out ‘Perfect Tense’, the titular single from the album, also out on Youtube.

I heard the second part of this schizophrenic song first – ‘Dystopia’. ‘The earth is on fire/We don’t have no daughter/let the motherfucker burn’ was something that got into my head instantly. Found out the first part ‘Utopia’, and it was like Kraftwerk ate mushrooms and had wild monkey sex with a Korg arpeggiator to come up with alien disco music. SO much fun!

Fenech-Soler is an electronic outfit from Northamptonshire in the UK, which puts them in the same geographical location as The Magus of Northampton – consider this a gratuitous way for me to mention my favorite writer, who I haven’t talked about in a while. But their music is great. This song’s from their second album, which came out in 2013, and

Jarryd James’ ‘Do You Remember’ feels me with dread for some reason. Maybe it’s the ominous chords, or the layered voices. Or maybe the earnestness in the voice appeals to me and I am in denial.

I keep getting turned off by the sameness of the Indian live music shows – Coke Studio, MTV Unplugged, Dewarists and so on, but occasionally a song pops out and makes me jump right back in. Ram Sampath’s set, in particular his cover of the traditional Oriya ‘Rangabati’ did that recently. Sona Mahapatra puts heart and soul into her rendition, and watching the video makes me grin at the sheer joy of her performance – obviously her familiarity with the language helps, observe the change in expression when she says “Tuhu tuhu’ at 2:51. Tony & Rajesh’s rap kick your teeth in (not as much as when they sing the other Bharatiyar Love Rap) and Rituraj Mohanty is stellar. What a song!

The Chainsmokers’ ‘Let You Go’ is a perfect LA song. Shout-out to the Last Bookstore – and holy shit, never thought of it as a make-out zone. Runyon Canyon too, ha! The first comment on that video tells you exactly what to expect though, so er, be warned.

Yeah, there’s a band called British India. Yup, they’re pretty damn good. They’re from Australia, and contrary to my aversion to standard guitar bands, they have proved to be a good exception. The video is weird in a nice way.

Toldja I am a Chairlift fan, so had to end the playlist with the other song from their album that’s stuck in my head. This one has a crunchy rock guitar, pumping beats, and Caroline at her awkward best in the video. ‘Hey Romeo/Put on your running shoes, I am ready to go’ makes me want to go start running again. I probably should, right?

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Myself, Travel

A City After 6 Years

It took me a few days of being in Hyderabad to parse the T in ‘TSRTC’ on local buses – it stands for Telangana. Six years ago, I would have been waiting for an APSRTC bus. But the hulking metal and glass blocks, regardless of political affiliation and State Road Transport Corporation, still make my heart lurch when they elbow their way past my rickshaw or bike.

The steamed dosa at Chutney’s is no longer called the Chiranjeevi dosa. When I looked for it on the menu, I realized that I could not remember if the name had ever actually existed officially or if it was just a bit of apocrypha we parroted to out-of-towners.  (But no, apparently the Chiranjeevi dosa does exist, and the actor’s family plans to capitalize on the name and the recipe. The official story however makes mention of an unknown restaurant in Mysore from where Chiru-garu got his idea, while we were told that Chutney’s came first.)

There are more Chutney’s restaurants now; one in Jubilee Hills, which we once turned our nose up towards because it was not the “real” restaurant, and one in Inorbit Mall in Madhapur. There are probably more that I don’t know of.

On my last day in Hyderabad, I went to the original restaurant at Nagarjuna Circle, joined by a friend who continues to work at our original workplace – the office of which has now moved to within walking distance of the restaurant. He will complete 14 years with the same company in May; had I stayed on, I would have celebrated the anniversary two days after him. “I hardly come here, though”, he said, making me groan in disbelief. He then ordered the South Indian thali while I got the steamed dosa, and the moment the gigantic plate loaded with the small bowls came to the table, I knew I had made a mistake.

“The city has moved”, my friend Shahnawaz said. “We hardly go to Begumpet anymore. We don’t need to.” Indeed, Madhapur and Gachibowli, once areas confused about their identity in the city greater, have embraced the “hitech” appellation whole-heartedly. The area, especially on weekday evenings, buzzes with festive. Brightly-lit alleys have busy hawkers serving tea, jalebis and bhajjis to a crowd that is dressed in a combination of pajamas and business casual; mostly young, some holding hands, others sitting inside cars waiting for orders to be served. I did not remember neo-Hyderabad this way, my memories of the Madhapur area is that of buildings in construction, desolate rocky areas punctuated with promises of dwellings both residential and business; unfriendly landlords and long commute times.

The first time I go from that part of town towards the older part of the city, the auto-rickshaw driver sputters and winds his vehicle through streets and past buildings that make me question my existence. The Metro is coming up, a winding spinal cord of giant pillars that introduces more chaos into my mental map of the city. It feels like being in a dream-version of Hyderabad, where the only thing I am sure of is that of my presence in the city, but there is nothing I can grasp and call my own. It is only when we reach Jubilee Hills check post that my brain realigns itself; from then on, I can make out landmarks of yore. Familiar buildings house unfamiliar names, but at least I can anchor myself to the once-that-was. I passed by a building that housed a restaurant I had come for a third date; another that had had a beautiful garden once. I went past a lane that a friend from work had decided was where the actress Trisha lived, and he would rev his bike through it every now and then while returning from the office, hoping that the lady would show up, and ask him for a ride, and then they would live happily ever after.

We reach Somajiguda Circle and I realize that I should have given better directions to the driver, because the road is now blocked and we can no longer make our way towards Raj Bhavan Road unless the guy drives another kilometer and makes a U-turn. But then, the guy reminds me that we are indeed in Hyderabad – he cranks his engine, swerves to the right, and drives through oncoming traffic on the other side of the road; honking twice as much as the annoyed drivers who still make way for him, he reaches the other end of the circle and merges not-so-smoothly with the rest of the traffic. Then he hears me guffawing in the backseat, and grinning wide, throws me a high-five.

Later, he tries to run down a kid who has walked to the middle of the street to pick up an errant kite. We are apparently friends, and he decides that his rickshaw is now a shared vehicle, stopping in front of random people to ask them if they want to get in. When I get down at my destination, the guy insists that he can change lanes again to make sure I stop right in front of where I am headed. But I do not wish blood pressure surges upon the good people of Lakdi-ka-pul, and proceed to cross the road myself. The Hyderabadi way, of course, which is to casually saunter across and hope nobody’s brakes fail. I nearly die twice, but nothing untoward happens to anyone. Maybe some wonder at the manic grin on my face, but I don’t really think about it.

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